Heart [Comma] Jess

…. here is what I have been up to ….

Thoughts have been swirling around my head. They need a landing place. But, not here. Not yet.

I’ve been too busy for my dreams to settle. Yet, I’ve been living a life that dreams are made of. Somethings are wonderful. Somethings make me absolutely sick to my stomach. I have been equal parts excited and sick these past few weeks.

I took a huge risk last week. I am still waiting for the repercussions.

I’ve been dreaming and chatting with many dear friends. Many of these conversations have birthed something new. New things that make my heart come alive.

I’ve been drinking way too much coffee, yet most days it’s not nearly enough to keep me on track.

I’ve been watching others blossom, move on, see their dreams become realities. I love doing life with them in those moments.

It’s summer. I’ve started living in dresses and skirts.

I’ve laughed, cried and prayed a lot this past month. The joys have been intense. The lows have been devastating. My little heart is barely holding on sometimes.

Outside my window… It looks cold, but the sun is peeking through the clouds. The trees are still bare, but I can see beautiful yellow flowers on the hill across the street. 

What I am thinking… My soul and body are weary. I want to sleep in my big bed with my snuggly dog. I feel insignificant beyond words and beaten down. I am resting in this “For I have given rest to the weary and joy to the sorrowing” - Jeremiah 31:25

My ears are enjoying… A song my boss shared with me called Song For Jaydin. It makes my heart so excited about adopting in the future! 

I’m going… away this weekend. Alone. Glorious. The only person who is invited to come with me is Jesus. 

I’m thankful for… friends that love me even when I am weird, tired and swear accidentally. And friends who move refrigerators. 

I’m looking forward to… rest and relaxation this weekend. LIFEgroup on Sunday night. Flowers and sunshine. Planting the veggie garden. 

I’m reading… Crazy Love for the 2nd time around. 

I’m about to… clean my apartment so my sweet friend can crash here tomorrow night and not have to shower in a yucky bathroom. 

My future… looks bright despite my weariness. Thanks God for being in control and knowing me better than I know myself.